soo my day today was pretty much busy but the same as every tuesday.
i went to clinic, i went to work, i came home, i tried to eat sum chips and drink a coke on the subway and people were all staring at me like they're never seen a person eat before. O_o
ummm what else?
oh im going to James' house this weekend :D im super excited bc we're gonna watch horror movies! and he has this really awesome surround sound speakers..thingy and it's gonna be so cool :)
ive never been to his house before bc it's out of town, like 30 mins but hopefully ill find it with no problem. im still really nervous though bc i know how the traffic is! especially on the highways and expressways waaahh D: hopefully ill be fine..cuz ya know, Miami and all.
to my friends tagging me in shit on facebook im really sorry, i hate facebook with a passion! well, im not really sorry. just saying XDDDD
i really miss the old school myspace. like really. idc who thinks its stupid. I miss it before it went all music-y bullshit idk how to explain it.
eh, well its 11:32pm and i have to work my second job in the morning blah.
James and my bestie are asleep. I should be too. <3
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
Monday, November 7, 2016
Subway/Charlie ticket/ CharlieCard--Boston Area
Got some shitty news for you guys. It really sucks!
My car didn't pass inspection because it needs two new wheel bearings, new breaks all around, and some other shit. So it's going to cost me roughly $1,000 labor included I think.
Why so much? because we go to friend of the family, and he's expensive yes but he is there when you need him. So I guess it's an even trade? .....
Soooo I'm stuck taking the subway and here's the problem. When I went to get my CharlieCard, I couldn't afford it. So I had to ask people if they could please spare a few dollars so I could get to work...talk about embarassing. Everyone is in such a hurry they usually said "sorry kid" or "I don't have the extra change, sorry."
I understand..but I was waiting there for so long that the security guard came out and asked me what I was doing. I explained to him the situation and he gave me $3 for the ride to work..it was really nice of him but I felt really bad about it.
Here's the rundown. If you have money on hand, it's $2.75 for a ticket, but I need a card...like it's cheaper if you get the monthy CharlieCard which is like, $80 something..
it's uh..
$84.50 I think.
So I'm trying to get some money so I can get to work and stuff for a month without worrying.
I just posted a status hoping someone can give me a hand..
I'm anxious :(
what if I can't get to work on time?? you know? ugh...:(
My car didn't pass inspection because it needs two new wheel bearings, new breaks all around, and some other shit. So it's going to cost me roughly $1,000 labor included I think.
Why so much? because we go to friend of the family, and he's expensive yes but he is there when you need him. So I guess it's an even trade? .....
Soooo I'm stuck taking the subway and here's the problem. When I went to get my CharlieCard, I couldn't afford it. So I had to ask people if they could please spare a few dollars so I could get to work...talk about embarassing. Everyone is in such a hurry they usually said "sorry kid" or "I don't have the extra change, sorry."
I understand..but I was waiting there for so long that the security guard came out and asked me what I was doing. I explained to him the situation and he gave me $3 for the ride to work..it was really nice of him but I felt really bad about it.
Here's the rundown. If you have money on hand, it's $2.75 for a ticket, but I need a card...like it's cheaper if you get the monthy CharlieCard which is like, $80 something..
it's uh..
$84.50 I think.
So I'm trying to get some money so I can get to work and stuff for a month without worrying.
I just posted a status hoping someone can give me a hand..
I'm anxious :(
what if I can't get to work on time?? you know? ugh...:(
Elections
My God, I can't wait for the elections to finally be over!
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Trump may win the popular vote, but he won't win the Electoral vote.
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enough of this elections bullshit!
I got more to talk about than this!
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Trump may win the popular vote, but he won't win the Electoral vote.
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enough of this elections bullshit!
I got more to talk about than this!
Stuff & a Surprise
well I'm on the compooter
lol pooter
uhhh ok
im watching Lets Make A Deal and its hilarious today. Wayne Brady got a massage from a guy dressed in a milk carton, then Wayne told Jonathan to sit at his feet and he would give him a message too, then he kicked Jonathan out of the way then Tiffany at there lol. I think.
It was really funny!
okay soooo yesterday I tried to preorder Pokemon Moon cuz I want the game really really bad! I played the demo yesterday and its so much cooler than I thought it would be. I don't care if people make fun of me for liking Pokemon it's all I got in life!!
and my best friend Crystal just texted me and blew mah phone up!!!
she said uh
that she got the Purrloin I sent her! im really happy about that. she was so happy!
she said she really wanted Purrloin at Walmart. So I'm like, okay!
so I go to walmart and they're sold out! freaken whaaaaat? so I got online and got her one n.n and she's really happy now!
she saw Litten at Gamestop and she wanted it really bad but her boyfriend said she could only get one, but I know she wanted Purrloin really bad so I didn't tell her I got it for her, and had it sent to her house! :D
QWA!!! -inside joke-
ooooooooooo so yeah I also got her a really cute cat change purse too for Christmas. It's just one small thing compared to what else I'm getting her. but it made me really happy that she is happy :)
she got me a ton of stuff for my birthday! it was such a surprise. She got me a really cute pink round Hello Kitty balloon, candy in a halloween treat bag, a winter pin, a hamburger yoyo, more candy, and a decoration thingy, umm what else? a necklace, a bracelet, and a few other things. She's so good to me I swear :') she's been my best RL friend since....4th grade. Mr Furgerburger's class. lol Mr F was a goofy shit who quit teaching to pursue professonal chess. I remember he didn't get very far lol.
Okay what else? ummmm
uh
I can't remember now.
lol pooter
uhhh ok
im watching Lets Make A Deal and its hilarious today. Wayne Brady got a massage from a guy dressed in a milk carton, then Wayne told Jonathan to sit at his feet and he would give him a message too, then he kicked Jonathan out of the way then Tiffany at there lol. I think.
It was really funny!
okay soooo yesterday I tried to preorder Pokemon Moon cuz I want the game really really bad! I played the demo yesterday and its so much cooler than I thought it would be. I don't care if people make fun of me for liking Pokemon it's all I got in life!!
and my best friend Crystal just texted me and blew mah phone up!!!
she said uh
that she got the Purrloin I sent her! im really happy about that. she was so happy!
she said she really wanted Purrloin at Walmart. So I'm like, okay!
so I go to walmart and they're sold out! freaken whaaaaat? so I got online and got her one n.n and she's really happy now!
she saw Litten at Gamestop and she wanted it really bad but her boyfriend said she could only get one, but I know she wanted Purrloin really bad so I didn't tell her I got it for her, and had it sent to her house! :D
QWA!!! -inside joke-
ooooooooooo so yeah I also got her a really cute cat change purse too for Christmas. It's just one small thing compared to what else I'm getting her. but it made me really happy that she is happy :)
she got me a ton of stuff for my birthday! it was such a surprise. She got me a really cute pink round Hello Kitty balloon, candy in a halloween treat bag, a winter pin, a hamburger yoyo, more candy, and a decoration thingy, umm what else? a necklace, a bracelet, and a few other things. She's so good to me I swear :') she's been my best RL friend since....4th grade. Mr Furgerburger's class. lol Mr F was a goofy shit who quit teaching to pursue professonal chess. I remember he didn't get very far lol.
Okay what else? ummmm
uh
I can't remember now.
Sunday, October 30, 2016
My head hurts
I'm really tired of this pain in my head :( sinuses suck..
I texted Skylar and didn't get an answer.
James is getting out of work.. idk if Janet is working but she doesn't text much..
I'll spam twitter I guess..
I'm really lonely
If your name was Mickey, and you were a girl, you'd be lonely too.
I suffer all the time and I'm tired of it. I never get any sinus relief that pressure behind the eyes...it sucks
I had to tell you guys... just to rant for a while..
I texted Skylar and didn't get an answer.
James is getting out of work.. idk if Janet is working but she doesn't text much..
I'll spam twitter I guess..
I'm really lonely
If your name was Mickey, and you were a girl, you'd be lonely too.
I suffer all the time and I'm tired of it. I never get any sinus relief that pressure behind the eyes...it sucks
I had to tell you guys... just to rant for a while..
Update
Well, well, well. Here I am. It's been a while hasn't it?
What's new with me? My birthday was this month.
Uh...
I have a really bad sinus headache and pressure. I was sick on Saturday and threw up.
I have to deal with this shit all the time. Tired of it.
Also, I'm using my phone instead of the computer and the site isn't very good for typing bc it messes up. Anyways
Uh
Friday at work I was hanging out with Janet & James and he had some of those jellybeans that taste like different shit. I can't remember the name. It wasn't Jelly Belly but it reminded me of those Harry Puttor (spelled wrong on purpose) Berty Botts every flavor beans. Well James had them in a bag and asked me to pick one for him to try. I picked one that looked orange and had speckles on it. Gave it to him and it was a vomit bean! Lmao I feel bad about it 😂 But he tried it!
He gave me some and they were all regular good ones then he gave me one that was spoiled milk! Yuck!! I hate milk! And it was the worst taste ever! Janet wouldn't try any but I did. Then James gave me one that tasted like toothpaste. Ew. He wouldn't tell me what ones I was trying either. He told me to tell him what it tasted like.
Janet wouldn't try and because she said her grandkids tried them before lol.
Sooo that was Friday. And my idiot co-worker didn't show up at work on Thursday so as sick as I was, I still had to cover for his ass. He didn't show up Friday or Saturday. Eh it's whatever.
Wish I could get a reliable co-worker already!
And 😂😂😂 I just thought of something. So we are getting a Sheetz and there was an article in the paper saying they have to bring people from outside the city to work since they're not getting enough workers to run the place lmao! People can't pass the drug tests! 😂 Oml
So what else? Ummm been messing around on Twitter. And I lost another slave because he said he supposedly missed a deadline at school. Not sure I believe that. So you missed 1 big assignment and you delete your twitter and kik? Yeah ok. I'm smart enough to know it's fake. Whatever. Not gonna let that bother me.
Besides, I still feel like shit from being sick and sinus pain in my face. It gets old.
And I really don't feel like going to a new doctor 😑😞
I'm sad my friend, well acquaintance. is too busy to talk to me anymore. Even his bitch Kay doesn't talk anymore.
Why do people have to be so fake? And play with people's emotions? I'm already sad enough I don't need more fake people!
What's new with me? My birthday was this month.
Uh...
I have a really bad sinus headache and pressure. I was sick on Saturday and threw up.
I have to deal with this shit all the time. Tired of it.
Also, I'm using my phone instead of the computer and the site isn't very good for typing bc it messes up. Anyways
Uh
Friday at work I was hanging out with Janet & James and he had some of those jellybeans that taste like different shit. I can't remember the name. It wasn't Jelly Belly but it reminded me of those Harry Puttor (spelled wrong on purpose) Berty Botts every flavor beans. Well James had them in a bag and asked me to pick one for him to try. I picked one that looked orange and had speckles on it. Gave it to him and it was a vomit bean! Lmao I feel bad about it 😂 But he tried it!
He gave me some and they were all regular good ones then he gave me one that was spoiled milk! Yuck!! I hate milk! And it was the worst taste ever! Janet wouldn't try any but I did. Then James gave me one that tasted like toothpaste. Ew. He wouldn't tell me what ones I was trying either. He told me to tell him what it tasted like.
Janet wouldn't try and because she said her grandkids tried them before lol.
Sooo that was Friday. And my idiot co-worker didn't show up at work on Thursday so as sick as I was, I still had to cover for his ass. He didn't show up Friday or Saturday. Eh it's whatever.
Wish I could get a reliable co-worker already!
And 😂😂😂 I just thought of something. So we are getting a Sheetz and there was an article in the paper saying they have to bring people from outside the city to work since they're not getting enough workers to run the place lmao! People can't pass the drug tests! 😂 Oml
So what else? Ummm been messing around on Twitter. And I lost another slave because he said he supposedly missed a deadline at school. Not sure I believe that. So you missed 1 big assignment and you delete your twitter and kik? Yeah ok. I'm smart enough to know it's fake. Whatever. Not gonna let that bother me.
Besides, I still feel like shit from being sick and sinus pain in my face. It gets old.
And I really don't feel like going to a new doctor 😑😞
I'm sad my friend, well acquaintance. is too busy to talk to me anymore. Even his bitch Kay doesn't talk anymore.
Why do people have to be so fake? And play with people's emotions? I'm already sad enough I don't need more fake people!
Sunday, October 2, 2016
JonBenet Ramsey
Now to a serious matter. I'm watching yet another program about the murder of little 6 year old JonBenet Ramsey. I would like to voice my opinions on this. Please keep in mind that I am just saying from my personal opinions.
I've watched several shows on JonBenet Ramsey. People are saying how strange Burke is during the interviews with Dr. Phil, and his reactions. Why did he keep smiling through the whole thing? smiling very awkwardly and almost sheepishly.
Did Patsy and Jon lie about Burke being asleep when Patsy called 911? I don't know.
The ransom note on the back stairs, written from the Rasmey's own pen and stationary from the house? Who has time to kidnap a little 6 year old, drag her to the basement, rape her and kill her? without anyone hearing or knowing?
Obviously the work of a very creepy mastermind.
This poor little girl was killed by some creep! It was said that she ate pineapple, it was undigested in her stomach when they did the autopsy. But the parents said that she didn't consume pineapple that day. So how did she get it in her stomach then?
I'm guessing here, but the Ramseys were on their way to a Christmas holiday party. And they did know a ton of people. So, perhaps little JonBenet had a couple bites at a party when her parents looked away for a minute or two, and a family friend gave her some.
Simple as that? but then, why was there pineapple in a dish at the Ramsey's home? beside a glass of iced tea?
Well, they had Christmas parties and someone else may have had some pineapple. Perhaps she had a bite that someone gave her?
I highly doubt a 6 year old would be wandering through her mansion-house in the middle of the night on Christmas night and got the pineapple out of the fridge herself.
My theory is, someone didn't leave the Ramsey's Christmas party over the span of 2 days. They may have hidden somewhere in the house, envious of the Ramsey's money? JonBenet's fame?
I don't know. But it was mentioned that where the Ramseys lived, there were a ton of pedophiles. And being a little beautiful 6 year old beauty queen, it's a "pedophile's dream" as it said on one of the programs I watched.
Who wrote the random note? I don't know. It's odd the note was found in the same place as the body. I don't have an answer for that. But I don't like to accuse anyone, it's not my place to judge.
Do I think Jon killed JonBenet? No.
Do I think Patsy killed JonBenet? No.
Do I think Burke killed JonBenet? No.
Who do I think did it? Someone envious of their family and the best way to get revenge was through JonBenet? I don't know. But this beautiful little girl was taken at only 6 years old.
Things like this that involve kids really hit home. It's heartbreaking and it makes me angry.
It was very strange one "admirer" pasted JonBenet's picture on Monopoly money. And had some sort of shrine for her. I don't know..
Honestly I don't know if we will ever know what truly happened to her. Especially since one kook said he killed her, but his DNA didn't match on the DNA on JonBenet's stockings. An unidentified male that does not belong to anyone in the Ramsey family. So that right there should clear Jon, Patsy and Burke.
Why did the handwriting look so much like Patsy's? When compared side-by-side? No idea. Patsy wrote out ($118,000.00) in long-form. It is strange, I know. But that doesn't directly tie Patsy to anything.
There are so many unanswered questions involving this tragic case. I hope someday we can find out the truth of what happened.
One other thing that bothers me is people saying Patsy got "karma" for supposedly killing JonBenet. I think that is a very mean thing to even say. Laughing that Patsy got ovarian cancer as "payback" for killing JonBenet.. is unspeakable. How could anyone say that? And Patsy passed away in 2006. She's passed on now, she can't defend herself over these heinous accusations.
To me, they seem like grieving parents on interviews. There is one exception though..one interview Patsy seemed like she was rehearsing crying..like it was scripted. Well, I know from experience when one cries too much, you cry your guts out, you can't physically produce anymore tears. So it sounds like wailing and moaning. That's what Patsy did. If my child (hypothetically speaking) was murdered, I would cry and cry until I physically couldn't cry anymore. I would be heartbroken, torn, just ripped apart..
As for Burke, he was so young that I don't believe he fully comprehended what happened to his sister. And then being harassed and pestered by the paparazzi and cameras..would be enough to give anyone anxiety. So Patsy and Jon tried to shield Burke, their last living child, from the harassment. So no wonder he acted so awkward on the interview with Dr. Phil.
As far as I know, we aren't to judge anyone. We can have our opinions of course..but we shouldn't accuse the Ramsey family of killing JonBenet. Innocent until proven guilty in the court of law in the United States of America. I really hope someday we find out who really did kill her, so this sweet little girl can FINALLY rest in peace. I hope 20 years later, now, she can rest.
I've watched several shows on JonBenet Ramsey. People are saying how strange Burke is during the interviews with Dr. Phil, and his reactions. Why did he keep smiling through the whole thing? smiling very awkwardly and almost sheepishly.
Did Patsy and Jon lie about Burke being asleep when Patsy called 911? I don't know.
The ransom note on the back stairs, written from the Rasmey's own pen and stationary from the house? Who has time to kidnap a little 6 year old, drag her to the basement, rape her and kill her? without anyone hearing or knowing?
Obviously the work of a very creepy mastermind.
This poor little girl was killed by some creep! It was said that she ate pineapple, it was undigested in her stomach when they did the autopsy. But the parents said that she didn't consume pineapple that day. So how did she get it in her stomach then?
I'm guessing here, but the Ramseys were on their way to a Christmas holiday party. And they did know a ton of people. So, perhaps little JonBenet had a couple bites at a party when her parents looked away for a minute or two, and a family friend gave her some.
Simple as that? but then, why was there pineapple in a dish at the Ramsey's home? beside a glass of iced tea?
Well, they had Christmas parties and someone else may have had some pineapple. Perhaps she had a bite that someone gave her?
I highly doubt a 6 year old would be wandering through her mansion-house in the middle of the night on Christmas night and got the pineapple out of the fridge herself.
My theory is, someone didn't leave the Ramsey's Christmas party over the span of 2 days. They may have hidden somewhere in the house, envious of the Ramsey's money? JonBenet's fame?
I don't know. But it was mentioned that where the Ramseys lived, there were a ton of pedophiles. And being a little beautiful 6 year old beauty queen, it's a "pedophile's dream" as it said on one of the programs I watched.
Who wrote the random note? I don't know. It's odd the note was found in the same place as the body. I don't have an answer for that. But I don't like to accuse anyone, it's not my place to judge.
Do I think Jon killed JonBenet? No.
Do I think Patsy killed JonBenet? No.
Do I think Burke killed JonBenet? No.
Who do I think did it? Someone envious of their family and the best way to get revenge was through JonBenet? I don't know. But this beautiful little girl was taken at only 6 years old.
Things like this that involve kids really hit home. It's heartbreaking and it makes me angry.
It was very strange one "admirer" pasted JonBenet's picture on Monopoly money. And had some sort of shrine for her. I don't know..
Honestly I don't know if we will ever know what truly happened to her. Especially since one kook said he killed her, but his DNA didn't match on the DNA on JonBenet's stockings. An unidentified male that does not belong to anyone in the Ramsey family. So that right there should clear Jon, Patsy and Burke.
Why did the handwriting look so much like Patsy's? When compared side-by-side? No idea. Patsy wrote out ($118,000.00) in long-form. It is strange, I know. But that doesn't directly tie Patsy to anything.
There are so many unanswered questions involving this tragic case. I hope someday we can find out the truth of what happened.
One other thing that bothers me is people saying Patsy got "karma" for supposedly killing JonBenet. I think that is a very mean thing to even say. Laughing that Patsy got ovarian cancer as "payback" for killing JonBenet.. is unspeakable. How could anyone say that? And Patsy passed away in 2006. She's passed on now, she can't defend herself over these heinous accusations.
To me, they seem like grieving parents on interviews. There is one exception though..one interview Patsy seemed like she was rehearsing crying..like it was scripted. Well, I know from experience when one cries too much, you cry your guts out, you can't physically produce anymore tears. So it sounds like wailing and moaning. That's what Patsy did. If my child (hypothetically speaking) was murdered, I would cry and cry until I physically couldn't cry anymore. I would be heartbroken, torn, just ripped apart..
As for Burke, he was so young that I don't believe he fully comprehended what happened to his sister. And then being harassed and pestered by the paparazzi and cameras..would be enough to give anyone anxiety. So Patsy and Jon tried to shield Burke, their last living child, from the harassment. So no wonder he acted so awkward on the interview with Dr. Phil.
As far as I know, we aren't to judge anyone. We can have our opinions of course..but we shouldn't accuse the Ramsey family of killing JonBenet. Innocent until proven guilty in the court of law in the United States of America. I really hope someday we find out who really did kill her, so this sweet little girl can FINALLY rest in peace. I hope 20 years later, now, she can rest.
Twitter ppls
Hi to everyone out there! especially muh Twitter ppls.
Ah, followers :) idk if anyone even reads my blogs.
But uh
sometimes I am pretty chatty on twitter and my followers can see that. lmao
NO MICKEY NEVER SHUTS UP
lol...Mickey
uh so yeah, my name is Mickey and I was watching Stonehearst Asylum on Netflix and someone said about slipping someone a "Mickey Finn" and I was like OH HOW CLEVER!
sooooo yeah, I took "Finn" and put it to my name so it's not just Mickey.
Um
So forgive me everyone but I want to spam this blog post with gifs I found. Is it okay?
......not like anyone will tell me not to. But I am me. And my birthday is in a few days.
So don't y'all forget to wish a Happy Birthday to your ol' pal Mickey on Twitter, or here lol
For those of you who don't know, my Twitter handle thinger is @Starlinahime
so go friend me there or some shiz.
I'm tired of those fake ass accounts with like, sexual pics with links and shit to porn. Idfc
fdkglergjkengjk anyways
gif spamzzz here :3 -slap'd-
I like Family Guy. if you couldn't tell. Do you gais like Family Guy too? You should tell me! Comment here or talk to me on Twitter! I do not have an active Facebook! I hate FB with a flaming passion. I miss old school Myspace though.
ok here's the funny!
Ah, followers :) idk if anyone even reads my blogs.
But uh
sometimes I am pretty chatty on twitter and my followers can see that. lmao
NO MICKEY NEVER SHUTS UP
lol...Mickey
uh so yeah, my name is Mickey and I was watching Stonehearst Asylum on Netflix and someone said about slipping someone a "Mickey Finn" and I was like OH HOW CLEVER!
sooooo yeah, I took "Finn" and put it to my name so it's not just Mickey.
Um
So forgive me everyone but I want to spam this blog post with gifs I found. Is it okay?
......not like anyone will tell me not to. But I am me. And my birthday is in a few days.
So don't y'all forget to wish a Happy Birthday to your ol' pal Mickey on Twitter, or here lol
For those of you who don't know, my Twitter handle thinger is @Starlinahime
so go friend me there or some shiz.
I'm tired of those fake ass accounts with like, sexual pics with links and shit to porn. Idfc
fdkglergjkengjk anyways
gif spamzzz here :3 -slap'd-
I like Family Guy. if you couldn't tell. Do you gais like Family Guy too? You should tell me! Comment here or talk to me on Twitter! I do not have an active Facebook! I hate FB with a flaming passion. I miss old school Myspace though.
ok here's the funny!
Hungry lol
I just remembered something funny.
Okay so I'm hungry right now and I was thinking of what I should have.
Then I thought maybe a frozen burrito.
I remembered the other day I put one on the plate in the microwave for like...3 mins? or 2? anyways, all the inside beans and shit blew out of it so it was just the burrito wrapper all plain like.
LMAO
This gif of Stewie is totally meant for me. Lol idk if I put it in for too long idk but lol
Okay so I'm hungry right now and I was thinking of what I should have.
Then I thought maybe a frozen burrito.
I remembered the other day I put one on the plate in the microwave for like...3 mins? or 2? anyways, all the inside beans and shit blew out of it so it was just the burrito wrapper all plain like.
LMAO
This gif of Stewie is totally meant for me. Lol idk if I put it in for too long idk but lol
Okay soooo what am I gonna have? probly a burrito. Yeahhhh like a boss.
so you pplz liek mah gifs? me too ok I'll stop typing like that for now. lol
About My Name
So my name is Mickey. Yeah, it's real funny. Who names their daughter Mickey?
My parents. Of all the names in the world, I had to be named that.
I get teased for it too. I get asked, "Hey Mickey! Where's Minnie?" or they sing "Oh Mickey you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind! Hey Mickey!"
What a bunch of shit..
I would much rather have a regular girl's name like...Mandy, or..Cheyenne. Yeah, Cheyenne is a pretty name.
I'd settle for something else just not Mickey. I hate it! Especially when we had a sub for class, or new teachers for the new school year..
and they read off role-call. "Mary, Michael, Michelle,...Mickey"
and everyone laughs.
Real funny.
Hello everyone, my name is Mickey and I'm a fucking girl!
My parents wanted a boy.
Couldn't you tell? Well piss on me, I guess.
Fuck that name. And what makes it worse is...I have shortish-medium hair and small boobs. So people are like, "are you a guy?"
...no I'm not. It would be easier if I was a guy though. Don't you think?
If I ever have a kid someday, a girl, I'll name her "Jackson" or "Bobby" see how she likes it!
....poor unfortunate thing. I feel bad even thinking of doing something like that.
Ummmmm...
so what else should I talk about?
oh, my friend a long time ago had a dog named Kevin. It was funny.
Ooookay gonna make a new entry now. I'm kinda talkative today.
My parents. Of all the names in the world, I had to be named that.
I get teased for it too. I get asked, "Hey Mickey! Where's Minnie?" or they sing "Oh Mickey you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind! Hey Mickey!"
What a bunch of shit..
I would much rather have a regular girl's name like...Mandy, or..Cheyenne. Yeah, Cheyenne is a pretty name.
I'd settle for something else just not Mickey. I hate it! Especially when we had a sub for class, or new teachers for the new school year..
and they read off role-call. "Mary, Michael, Michelle,...Mickey"
and everyone laughs.
Real funny.
Hello everyone, my name is Mickey and I'm a fucking girl!
My parents wanted a boy.
Couldn't you tell? Well piss on me, I guess.
Fuck that name. And what makes it worse is...I have shortish-medium hair and small boobs. So people are like, "are you a guy?"
...no I'm not. It would be easier if I was a guy though. Don't you think?
If I ever have a kid someday, a girl, I'll name her "Jackson" or "Bobby" see how she likes it!
....poor unfortunate thing. I feel bad even thinking of doing something like that.
Ummmmm...
so what else should I talk about?
oh, my friend a long time ago had a dog named Kevin. It was funny.
Ooookay gonna make a new entry now. I'm kinda talkative today.
Saturday, August 13, 2016
Keeping Busy
So I keep myself busy on the weekends (saturday and sunday after work) and I enjoy watching YTPs. (Youtube Poops) and they're really funny. I should give you guys a link to a couple. I don't know if I even have any viewers really lmao.
Sooooooo yeah
um
it's really hot and I made a rant about 5pm traffic in West Palm Beach is crowded just like Dallas.
It's too damn hot. and we don't have AC. because SOME people in my house don't like it.
I'm listening to the song "Stressed Out" by 21 Pilots.
"My name's Blurry Face and I care what you think. Wish we could turn back time to the good ol' days. When our momma sang us to sleep. But now we're stressed out."
Good songs.
I also heard Meghan Trainor's song "Me Too" which was good. But I don't follow her. I like, one song of hers lol. She looks good as a red-head.
Wellllllllll
um
so
what should I talk about?
;gkmerpgandejkr I gotta work in the morning.
does any of you guys have a Twitter account? if you do, you should totally follow me. and tell me it's you though because I totally won't know it's you.
What's my Twitter handle? um
its @StarlinaHime
You know, I wanna tell you guys what bands I like. If you like High Octane, Pop, Metal then you'll like some bands I do. I really wanna chat about bands.
so yeah music I like:
Sooooooo yeah
um
it's really hot and I made a rant about 5pm traffic in West Palm Beach is crowded just like Dallas.
It's too damn hot. and we don't have AC. because SOME people in my house don't like it.
I'm listening to the song "Stressed Out" by 21 Pilots.
"My name's Blurry Face and I care what you think. Wish we could turn back time to the good ol' days. When our momma sang us to sleep. But now we're stressed out."
Good songs.
I also heard Meghan Trainor's song "Me Too" which was good. But I don't follow her. I like, one song of hers lol. She looks good as a red-head.
Wellllllllll
um
so
what should I talk about?
;gkmerpgandejkr I gotta work in the morning.
does any of you guys have a Twitter account? if you do, you should totally follow me. and tell me it's you though because I totally won't know it's you.
What's my Twitter handle? um
its @StarlinaHime
You know, I wanna tell you guys what bands I like. If you like High Octane, Pop, Metal then you'll like some bands I do. I really wanna chat about bands.
so yeah music I like:
- BOTDF
- 21 Pilots
- Lacrimas Profundere
- Elvenking
- Evanescence
- Nightwish
- Shinedown
- Buried in Verona
- From First To Last
- Senses Fail
- WhiteChapel
- The Medic Droid
- Razakel
- Within Temptation
- Lacuna Coil
- Myrath
- Slipknot
- Scythia
- Sirenia
- Coal Chamber (some songs)
- The Candles Burning Blue
- A Textbook Tragedy
- Captain Hook & Bunch of Filthy Fucking Pirates
That's all for now. Check some out. K byeeee :3
Hai Thomas Trash, Skyler and Herr Commandant Daj! love you guys
Some artist lol
This artist on Deviantart is so rude lol. She made a post and journal begging for money, begging for points and a subscription for the site. I'm like, okay.
Then she said she would make commissions for people but for no less than $10 for a small one. Okay.
So I messaged her asking about a commission and she doesn't reply for days. Which is funny since she doesn't work, too lazy to get one and then she begs for money. It's ridiculous really. She doesn't want my money? fine. I'll just keep it then.
She has the world's worst attitude and she's hated on a lot of sites.
I work two jobs and take classes, she doesn't even have a job.
So anyways she's really stupid and I wanted to vent lol.
Then she said she would make commissions for people but for no less than $10 for a small one. Okay.
So I messaged her asking about a commission and she doesn't reply for days. Which is funny since she doesn't work, too lazy to get one and then she begs for money. It's ridiculous really. She doesn't want my money? fine. I'll just keep it then.
She has the world's worst attitude and she's hated on a lot of sites.
I work two jobs and take classes, she doesn't even have a job.
So anyways she's really stupid and I wanted to vent lol.
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
Love is Respect
I wanted to make an entry about love is respect.
I've had plenty of abusive relationships..physical and mental abuse both.
Abuse is never ever okay, and it's never your fault.
I'm so tired of the victim getting attacked and blamed, especially for their own rape.
I don't know if I can ever go into this right now...
I just needed to get the word out. Here's some links if you want to check them out:
Link #1: www.loveisrespect.org (it's not just for youth)
Link #2: www.crisischat.org
I apologize that I don't have a better journal. I'm tired from work and I just can't deal with things right now..but I hope I can help someone.
I've had plenty of abusive relationships..physical and mental abuse both.
Abuse is never ever okay, and it's never your fault.
I'm so tired of the victim getting attacked and blamed, especially for their own rape.
I don't know if I can ever go into this right now...
I just needed to get the word out. Here's some links if you want to check them out:
Link #1: www.loveisrespect.org (it's not just for youth)
Link #2: www.crisischat.org
I apologize that I don't have a better journal. I'm tired from work and I just can't deal with things right now..but I hope I can help someone.
Been on Hiatus
well, well, well here I am back again. I've been on hiatus for a really long time haven't I?
I've had a lot going on and I needed a break from here.
Why did I leave? because ppl kinda suck sometimes. Facebook really sucks sometimes.
I come back from hiatus and a "friend" of mine unfriends me. So I thought maybe she made a new account. Nope. So my friend messaged her (mutual friend did) and she tells my friend "we barely talk. She can get over it! lmao"
o.o
yeah okay right. Some friend huh? right. well, I explained to her that I had a lot going on in real life. I can't be on FB all the time. I really needed a break. And you know what's funny? I checked our previous messages and she's the one who hardly wrote back to me.
You know those people right? the ones who you send a message to and they just read it? but never reply?
ok so my first thought she was busy, she will reply later. nope she never did.
She never talked to me. and I even sent her a small gift before. That's funny she all of a sudden forgets that.
She's the kind of person that is a spoiled little bitch brat who gets whatever she wants.
She only is your friend if you have something to offer her. That kind.
Oh well bitch! I don't want to be your friend either, stupid cunt :)
Ok so besides that, what else? oh yeah.
You know fuck boys? yeahhh I don't have time for that shit.
I have a "friend" who's only your friend when he's bored. When he's single, he wants to be your friend. but communication has always sucked with him anyways.
No messages on kik, no messages on facebook or my phone. k fucker.
So yeah, anyways...
um
yeah I keep getting distracted.
He pissed me off because he wouldn't talk and then I log in facebook and surprise! he's dating some new chick named Rebecca. all righty then.
so I texted my wifey and told her and my bestie Skyler and they both said don't worry about it because he's a man whore anyways.
He's my ex and I'm really tired of guys who just take advantage of girls.
he's not a real friend.
speaking of real friends, I'm seriously tired of giving my 100% when someone won't even give me 5%. are you familiar with what's going on here? yeah.
I don't know what to do anymore. I have some pretty lousy "friends" they're not my real friends then.
I'm just too kind and I'm getting taken advantage of for that.
Talked to Josh last night which was nice. Angel messaged me tonight, haven't heard from her in ages. Uhh..lesse. Who else? um mmm mmmmmmm
idk
just to let you guys know, I really don't care if I'm typing like a 13 year old. I really don't care about that right now. I just need to let all kinds of feelings out of me.
I'm so stressed out.
I'm going to be seeing a new therapist because the one I'm seeing isn't helping me very much.
You know, I don't want to be my age and still worry about my friends online if they act like cunts to me. I've been using that word a lot lately, I never used to.
I wish I really didn't give a shit like Frank Garrett. (He's famous on Youtube)
Frank Garrett: "I don't give a shit! mother fucker, fuck you!"
I don't know why I care about people who don't care about me.
Why do I give a shit?
I don't know.
I can't post what I really feel on facebook. So you know what? I don't post a damn thing on mine! my personal life isn't on facebook. I post shit on my Twitter www.twitter.com/StarlinaHime
because I can and well, you people don't know me personally.
if you did, you'd know that my family is super religious and yeah they don't swear too much.
just tired of rules you know?
gkdnsg,dfnbkabdf b,fdmb
I can't get over how people can be such cunts online.
I have never attacked someone online. Not once.
I gave a girl a compliment on her art on Deviantart and she flipped off the handle.
Her character was darker looking, blood shot eyes, red pupil and red iris, black hair, white skin, a bloody knife, character standing in a pool of blood. I said "wow she looks really cool and evil."
And you know what?
She flipped shit on me and made this really long journal entry about how her characters aren't evil and blah blah blah.
....like..bitch, are you kidding me? I didn't mean it negatively.
She made that journal calling me out and some other people. Uh..some people are so awful seriously.
I didn't mean anything bad. So I sent her an apology.
No response.
All righty, well fuck you too ;)
I've had a lot going on and I needed a break from here.
Why did I leave? because ppl kinda suck sometimes. Facebook really sucks sometimes.
I come back from hiatus and a "friend" of mine unfriends me. So I thought maybe she made a new account. Nope. So my friend messaged her (mutual friend did) and she tells my friend "we barely talk. She can get over it! lmao"
o.o
yeah okay right. Some friend huh? right. well, I explained to her that I had a lot going on in real life. I can't be on FB all the time. I really needed a break. And you know what's funny? I checked our previous messages and she's the one who hardly wrote back to me.
You know those people right? the ones who you send a message to and they just read it? but never reply?
ok so my first thought she was busy, she will reply later. nope she never did.
She never talked to me. and I even sent her a small gift before. That's funny she all of a sudden forgets that.
She's the kind of person that is a spoiled little bitch brat who gets whatever she wants.
She only is your friend if you have something to offer her. That kind.
Oh well bitch! I don't want to be your friend either, stupid cunt :)
Ok so besides that, what else? oh yeah.
You know fuck boys? yeahhh I don't have time for that shit.
I have a "friend" who's only your friend when he's bored. When he's single, he wants to be your friend. but communication has always sucked with him anyways.
No messages on kik, no messages on facebook or my phone. k fucker.
So yeah, anyways...
um
yeah I keep getting distracted.
He pissed me off because he wouldn't talk and then I log in facebook and surprise! he's dating some new chick named Rebecca. all righty then.
so I texted my wifey and told her and my bestie Skyler and they both said don't worry about it because he's a man whore anyways.
He's my ex and I'm really tired of guys who just take advantage of girls.
he's not a real friend.
speaking of real friends, I'm seriously tired of giving my 100% when someone won't even give me 5%. are you familiar with what's going on here? yeah.
I don't know what to do anymore. I have some pretty lousy "friends" they're not my real friends then.
I'm just too kind and I'm getting taken advantage of for that.
Talked to Josh last night which was nice. Angel messaged me tonight, haven't heard from her in ages. Uhh..lesse. Who else? um mmm mmmmmmm
idk
just to let you guys know, I really don't care if I'm typing like a 13 year old. I really don't care about that right now. I just need to let all kinds of feelings out of me.
I'm so stressed out.
I'm going to be seeing a new therapist because the one I'm seeing isn't helping me very much.
You know, I don't want to be my age and still worry about my friends online if they act like cunts to me. I've been using that word a lot lately, I never used to.
I wish I really didn't give a shit like Frank Garrett. (He's famous on Youtube)
Frank Garrett: "I don't give a shit! mother fucker, fuck you!"
I don't know why I care about people who don't care about me.
Why do I give a shit?
I don't know.
I can't post what I really feel on facebook. So you know what? I don't post a damn thing on mine! my personal life isn't on facebook. I post shit on my Twitter www.twitter.com/StarlinaHime
because I can and well, you people don't know me personally.
if you did, you'd know that my family is super religious and yeah they don't swear too much.
just tired of rules you know?
gkdnsg,dfnbkabdf b,fdmb
I can't get over how people can be such cunts online.
I have never attacked someone online. Not once.
I gave a girl a compliment on her art on Deviantart and she flipped off the handle.
Her character was darker looking, blood shot eyes, red pupil and red iris, black hair, white skin, a bloody knife, character standing in a pool of blood. I said "wow she looks really cool and evil."
And you know what?
She flipped shit on me and made this really long journal entry about how her characters aren't evil and blah blah blah.
....like..bitch, are you kidding me? I didn't mean it negatively.
She made that journal calling me out and some other people. Uh..some people are so awful seriously.
I didn't mean anything bad. So I sent her an apology.
No response.
All righty, well fuck you too ;)
Sunday, February 21, 2016
Terrible Lunch Policy
I'm tired of ignoring this. I took the school's name out to avoid embarrassment of those who are affected by this shame. I do know many other schools are now doing this "Cold Cheese Sandwich" policy aka "the Alternate Lunch" for students who can't pay their lunch bills. I owed over $30 because my family consists of my dad and I.
My single father tried his best to be able to provide lunch money for me so I could have a hot school lunch. Well guess what? with the rising costs of absolutely everything, he wasn't able to continue to do so.
I had two choices. Take the cold cheese sandwich or go hungry.
Most of the time, I had to go hungry because I was too ashamed to eat the sandwich. In fact, I skipped lunch and went to the library to avoid the looks and jeers from my fellow peers.
Despite my dad being a single working person, he had too much pride to apply for financial assistance so in turn, I was the one who had to suffer.
I had to have the cold cheese sandwiches. The school did offer plain peanut butter sandwiches, but there are so many students like myself, who have allergies to peanut butter (I can't digest it and it gives me acid so bad that I throw up).
I'm pretty sure that there is a new lunch policy under "No Child Hungry" and they're supposed to provide alternate lunches of meat, vegetables, fruit and milk. Am I incorrect?
You know what is mortifying? THIS pathetic excuse for a lunch. I'm tired of people commenting and saying, "just pay your bill. We all have to." you know what? what if we have a parent who makes way less than $30K a year? then what? I have a job after school for a couple hours so I can try to get myself a better lunch than a cold cheese sandwich.
And once, I've had to return my hot lunch on my tray! yes! I had to give it back! do you realize how completely embarrassing that was?? I wanted to hide under the lunch table!!
I had to return the tray and was given a cold cheese sandwich, a small apple, and a carton of milk (which I can't drink milk either).
I wasn't able to be a part of the breakfast program in the mornings before school either due to my father's pride. So I had a slice of plain toast and a cup of plain coffee every single day before school. Sometimes I would have a banana too but that was it.
It makes me sick to my stomach thinking about all these students everywhere that all they get to eat for lunch is a cold cheese sandwich (no ham), or peanut butter (no jelly).
We deserve better. A lot better.
This photo shows what we get for lunch.
I edited her last name and photo to avoid embarrassment.
My single father tried his best to be able to provide lunch money for me so I could have a hot school lunch. Well guess what? with the rising costs of absolutely everything, he wasn't able to continue to do so.
I had two choices. Take the cold cheese sandwich or go hungry.
Most of the time, I had to go hungry because I was too ashamed to eat the sandwich. In fact, I skipped lunch and went to the library to avoid the looks and jeers from my fellow peers.
Despite my dad being a single working person, he had too much pride to apply for financial assistance so in turn, I was the one who had to suffer.
I had to have the cold cheese sandwiches. The school did offer plain peanut butter sandwiches, but there are so many students like myself, who have allergies to peanut butter (I can't digest it and it gives me acid so bad that I throw up).
I'm pretty sure that there is a new lunch policy under "No Child Hungry" and they're supposed to provide alternate lunches of meat, vegetables, fruit and milk. Am I incorrect?
You know what is mortifying? THIS pathetic excuse for a lunch. I'm tired of people commenting and saying, "just pay your bill. We all have to." you know what? what if we have a parent who makes way less than $30K a year? then what? I have a job after school for a couple hours so I can try to get myself a better lunch than a cold cheese sandwich.
And once, I've had to return my hot lunch on my tray! yes! I had to give it back! do you realize how completely embarrassing that was?? I wanted to hide under the lunch table!!
I had to return the tray and was given a cold cheese sandwich, a small apple, and a carton of milk (which I can't drink milk either).
I wasn't able to be a part of the breakfast program in the mornings before school either due to my father's pride. So I had a slice of plain toast and a cup of plain coffee every single day before school. Sometimes I would have a banana too but that was it.
It makes me sick to my stomach thinking about all these students everywhere that all they get to eat for lunch is a cold cheese sandwich (no ham), or peanut butter (no jelly).
We deserve better. A lot better.
This photo shows what we get for lunch.
I edited her last name and photo to avoid embarrassment.
Thursday, February 18, 2016
So Tired
I'm so tired today zzz
I had to get up early super early bc I had an appointment early this morning. I didn't sleep so well last night.
I envy the people who can nap in the daytime. I can't get a nap in the day because I wake up with really bad anxiety. Every time.
I really wanted some chocolates...I hoped to get to Walmart to get some discounted candy but I haven't been able to. :/
I had to get up early super early bc I had an appointment early this morning. I didn't sleep so well last night.
I envy the people who can nap in the daytime. I can't get a nap in the day because I wake up with really bad anxiety. Every time.
I really wanted some chocolates...I hoped to get to Walmart to get some discounted candy but I haven't been able to. :/
Tuesday, February 16, 2016
Hmmm
Whoever was into my account today, please don't. I use this blog as an outlet to release emotions and so on. I had to verify my identity again, the second time in the past two weeks. So please let it be.
Anyways, it's snowing terribly outside and I don't know if I'll be able to make it to work tonight or not. Channel 4 said the storm isn't letting up. :/
Anyways, it's snowing terribly outside and I don't know if I'll be able to make it to work tonight or not. Channel 4 said the storm isn't letting up. :/
Monday, February 15, 2016
Social Media Harassment
I really hate it that social media makes it really easy for others to harass and pester others. I was harassed on Facebook by someone who I thought was a friend. I had to end up and block him and hope he leaves me alone.
I'm shaking really bad and I have to leave for work in about 10 minutes. . .
He knows I have an anxiety disorder and can't handle stress that well, yet it didn't stop him.
Please everyone, use social media only for good. Not to be harassing other people. I mean, you don't know what they're going through. Everyone has their own struggles and battles to fight every day. Don't add to it, okay?
I'm literally sick to my stomach and I don't feel good. I feel like I'm getting the diarrhea.
Well, I have to get my lunch together for work and then I'll be back later.
I can't wait to chat to Ivan and Jason tonight, I need it.
I got to talk to Angel for a few minutes but not very long.. I didn't hear from Skyler today or anything.
Gotta run. Have a good day everyone. I'll be back tonight to blog about stuff.
Bye xx
I'm shaking really bad and I have to leave for work in about 10 minutes. . .
He knows I have an anxiety disorder and can't handle stress that well, yet it didn't stop him.
Please everyone, use social media only for good. Not to be harassing other people. I mean, you don't know what they're going through. Everyone has their own struggles and battles to fight every day. Don't add to it, okay?
I'm literally sick to my stomach and I don't feel good. I feel like I'm getting the diarrhea.
Well, I have to get my lunch together for work and then I'll be back later.
I can't wait to chat to Ivan and Jason tonight, I need it.
I got to talk to Angel for a few minutes but not very long.. I didn't hear from Skyler today or anything.
Gotta run. Have a good day everyone. I'll be back tonight to blog about stuff.
Bye xx
Sunday, February 14, 2016
Real Wishes
Please check out this site called "Real Wishes" it's cool. You submit a wish, follow the instructions and your wish will come true! but you can't tell anyone what it is though! until it comes true :)
Try it out!!
www.real-wishes.com
Try it out!!
www.real-wishes.com
BasketsFX
Baskets is literally so funny, I can't even XD
Basket's mom said this, "You know, I'll pull over and spank you! How would you like THAT on Easter Sunday?" lmfao
Baskets got flipped off in church bc he tried to get his mom's attention in church and he was being disruptive. lmfao
Louie Anderson plays Zack Galifinakis' mom on Baskets XD it's hilarious I mean really it is!
Baskets needs to be on Netflix, just saying!
I need $40 for HBO
and you are not a "cloon"
XD
Basket's mom said this, "You know, I'll pull over and spank you! How would you like THAT on Easter Sunday?" lmfao
Baskets got flipped off in church bc he tried to get his mom's attention in church and he was being disruptive. lmfao
Louie Anderson plays Zack Galifinakis' mom on Baskets XD it's hilarious I mean really it is!
Baskets needs to be on Netflix, just saying!
I need $40 for HBO
and you are not a "cloon"
XD
Gifts
So I sent my good friend Te' some candy and a chocolate rose and a card for Valentine's Day.
I sent Nova kind of the same thing and they both surprised me with some candy and a card.
It was really sweet of them! although I wish they hadn't of spent money on me. ;o;
oh and my other friend gave me a chocolate heart!
omg my other friend just texted me right now and said he has a gift for me.
My friends are the best, they really are. I'm so blessed and lucky for them.
I drank a half cup of coffee and now I have acid really bad. Can't drink coffee anymore! it's sad.
Earlier today I jumped on Katie's lap and she didn't like it XDDD
ummm I talked to Skyler this morning and she was like, "wot? im shleeping, go on mate" XD not really but she said she was tired and was kind of half out of it when she was talking to me. haha
speaking of her she just texted me right now and said she got discs for Skyrim and now she can build her own house :3
I used to be an adventurer like you until I took an arrow to the knee XD lmao
she said "omg I got Skyrim discs ^~^ I can now build meh own house"
isn't that the cutest? omg c:
I sent Nova kind of the same thing and they both surprised me with some candy and a card.
It was really sweet of them! although I wish they hadn't of spent money on me. ;o;
oh and my other friend gave me a chocolate heart!
omg my other friend just texted me right now and said he has a gift for me.
My friends are the best, they really are. I'm so blessed and lucky for them.
I drank a half cup of coffee and now I have acid really bad. Can't drink coffee anymore! it's sad.
Earlier today I jumped on Katie's lap and she didn't like it XDDD
ummm I talked to Skyler this morning and she was like, "wot? im shleeping, go on mate" XD not really but she said she was tired and was kind of half out of it when she was talking to me. haha
speaking of her she just texted me right now and said she got discs for Skyrim and now she can build her own house :3
I used to be an adventurer like you until I took an arrow to the knee XD lmao
she said "omg I got Skyrim discs ^~^ I can now build meh own house"
isn't that the cutest? omg c:
Mad At Me :(
So yeah, my gf is mad at me. ;o; we aren't official or anything, but yeah.
She's mad at me because I can't stay the night at her house and she said I'm being inconsiderate.
Her bed hurts my back really bad T.T She stays at my house a lot though, so I don't know what the problem is...you know? I mean, every time I go grocery shopping, I always buy her stuff she wants and leave it at my house and I don't touch it.
She likes Fruit Loops and nobody else can touch them except for her. I buy things for her that I really don't have the money for, but I do it because it makes her happy.
I mean, I do buy her stuff when I can.. last night we went out for dinner, and I bought her food. And I bought her lunch (plus I order for her bc she gets too nervous to do it herself) and I bought her candy and flowers, and I left her a long message for her to read when she wakes up.
The last few days she was like, "oh I don't mind buying you things bc you deserve it" now she's like "I gave you something now do what I want" like, no.. and she keeps telling me that she spent all her money on me. No she spent $25 on me, and I spent $110 on her this weekend.
So she's mad I can't stay the night. I really can't! I work two jobs and tomorrow I have my double shift and I need a good nights sleep. Her bed kills my back and my physical labor job hurts my back too.
I feel bad that she's mad at me. And she texted me and said "don't bother bc I don't care"
It's not just me. I'm not selfish or self-centered. I'm really not.
I play video games with her usually till 1 in the morning and I'm tired.
I don't even mind when she gets me an assortment of chocolates and eats all the good ones and makes me eat the crap ones left over. I never say anything, you know?
Like, she took a bite of one and it was strawberry and she said "eww it's strawberry! here, you eat this one" and put it back and took a different one.
She just wants to spend time with me a lot, and I want to make her happy. I don't like it when she's mad at me or upset.
She's mad at me because I can't stay the night at her house and she said I'm being inconsiderate.
Her bed hurts my back really bad T.T She stays at my house a lot though, so I don't know what the problem is...you know? I mean, every time I go grocery shopping, I always buy her stuff she wants and leave it at my house and I don't touch it.
She likes Fruit Loops and nobody else can touch them except for her. I buy things for her that I really don't have the money for, but I do it because it makes her happy.
I mean, I do buy her stuff when I can.. last night we went out for dinner, and I bought her food. And I bought her lunch (plus I order for her bc she gets too nervous to do it herself) and I bought her candy and flowers, and I left her a long message for her to read when she wakes up.
The last few days she was like, "oh I don't mind buying you things bc you deserve it" now she's like "I gave you something now do what I want" like, no.. and she keeps telling me that she spent all her money on me. No she spent $25 on me, and I spent $110 on her this weekend.
So she's mad I can't stay the night. I really can't! I work two jobs and tomorrow I have my double shift and I need a good nights sleep. Her bed kills my back and my physical labor job hurts my back too.
I feel bad that she's mad at me. And she texted me and said "don't bother bc I don't care"
It's not just me. I'm not selfish or self-centered. I'm really not.
I play video games with her usually till 1 in the morning and I'm tired.
I don't even mind when she gets me an assortment of chocolates and eats all the good ones and makes me eat the crap ones left over. I never say anything, you know?
Like, she took a bite of one and it was strawberry and she said "eww it's strawberry! here, you eat this one" and put it back and took a different one.
She just wants to spend time with me a lot, and I want to make her happy. I don't like it when she's mad at me or upset.
Saturday, February 13, 2016
Lots of Stuff
Hello internet world, guess who's back? yup it's meee!
okay I'm like loling because ah, you know. Um...
So I went to Tim Hortons..the coffee shop with my friends Erika & Chelsea and we talked for a bit then they had to go.
Then I went and got my taxes done, then Walmart and spend my hard-earned money and then went to church.
Speaking of church, I was watching Baskets on FX and lol Baskets was interrupting church bc his mom's car was gonna get towed & he got flipped off XD haha
I need $40 for HBO. XDDDD
I'm always looking for funny things to keep my mind off of my anxiety and depression. That's the reason I blog and write things and so on.
I talked to my bestie Skyler and Angel on FB today and that was fun. I have a crush on Jason but I don't think I have a snowball's change in Hell that he would fall for me, but I can't get down on myself about it..you know? I have to be positive. I spent a lot of time talking to him and my friends so everything is okay. I'm just afraid to trust someone with my heart again, I'm so afraid to get hurt over and over again.
I'm not going with my friend Andy to get coffee tomorrow because well...it feels too much like a date and I feel very uncomfortable about it. So instead, I volunteered at my great uncle's nursing home for the Valentine's Day Party. It's nice, the residents get Sugar Free cookies and punch. I believe there is going to be music too. Next Friday is going to be some guy playing polka music at 6pm but I have to work..so I wanted to go with my great uncle but that won't be happening.
Can only do what I can, right?
okay I'm like loling because ah, you know. Um...
So I went to Tim Hortons..the coffee shop with my friends Erika & Chelsea and we talked for a bit then they had to go.
Then I went and got my taxes done, then Walmart and spend my hard-earned money and then went to church.
Speaking of church, I was watching Baskets on FX and lol Baskets was interrupting church bc his mom's car was gonna get towed & he got flipped off XD haha
I need $40 for HBO. XDDDD
I'm always looking for funny things to keep my mind off of my anxiety and depression. That's the reason I blog and write things and so on.
I talked to my bestie Skyler and Angel on FB today and that was fun. I have a crush on Jason but I don't think I have a snowball's change in Hell that he would fall for me, but I can't get down on myself about it..you know? I have to be positive. I spent a lot of time talking to him and my friends so everything is okay. I'm just afraid to trust someone with my heart again, I'm so afraid to get hurt over and over again.
I'm not going with my friend Andy to get coffee tomorrow because well...it feels too much like a date and I feel very uncomfortable about it. So instead, I volunteered at my great uncle's nursing home for the Valentine's Day Party. It's nice, the residents get Sugar Free cookies and punch. I believe there is going to be music too. Next Friday is going to be some guy playing polka music at 6pm but I have to work..so I wanted to go with my great uncle but that won't be happening.
Can only do what I can, right?
Thursday, February 11, 2016
Rejection & Life
It really sucks when you really like your friend and you've asked him out twice but he keeps saying he's not ready to date...but then dates your friend. Yeah...that really sucks.
I shouldn't let it get to me but for some reason I do.
Eh..
I'm feeling very tired and run down as usual. This cold certainly isn't helping anything.
It's a white-out outside due to the snow storms and crap. Driving to work is going to be a joy :x not.
This Saturday it's supposed to be only 1 degree for temperature. It's way tooo cold!
Well this entry is going to be short because I'm feeling really sick and tired. I'm going to have some lunch and lay down before work. Have a nice day everyone.
I shouldn't let it get to me but for some reason I do.
Eh..
I'm feeling very tired and run down as usual. This cold certainly isn't helping anything.
It's a white-out outside due to the snow storms and crap. Driving to work is going to be a joy :x not.
This Saturday it's supposed to be only 1 degree for temperature. It's way tooo cold!
Well this entry is going to be short because I'm feeling really sick and tired. I'm going to have some lunch and lay down before work. Have a nice day everyone.
Tuesday, February 9, 2016
Ugh
I really don't feel like going to work today.. I'm so sick, and I never miss work..but I really need the rest. Hopefully the work day goes by fast. What do you do when you're sick?
I have some water and just had some lunch, but I'm still not feeling better.
Yesterday I took a half of a peanut butter sandwich and apple sauce with me to work. I split up the food during my work time and took small breaks. I noticed that it really helps to eat small meals through the day to keep my body stable.
I really hate pricking my fingers to get my blood tested. I tried on setting 2 and it barely produced any blood to test on the strip. I had to go to setting 5 and then suffer getting pricked again.
I was taking a break in the conference room and my co-worker texts me something stupid about not having supplies for her place she's cleaning. Well what did she want me to do about it? I can't do anything. It's like she doesn't have a brain and can't think for herself.
I replied back that I was getting my blood sugar tested and I couldn't go get her any. You know, if I needed supplies, I had to go get it myself!
One time, I asked her to please bring me something that I forgot that day (and she was in the same building) and she texted me back and said "Can't you just get it?" well thanks a lot. -_-
She does a really half-cracked job anyways.
Everyone takes advantage of me and I'm sick of it. I'm not a doormat. So when I speak up for myself, I get in more trouble. It makes no sense really. :/ but she won't be around much longer as per what the boss said. So what am I supposed to do in the meantime? Eh..
I still have a bit of time before work so I'm going to relax and try not to be stressed out.
I have some water and just had some lunch, but I'm still not feeling better.
Yesterday I took a half of a peanut butter sandwich and apple sauce with me to work. I split up the food during my work time and took small breaks. I noticed that it really helps to eat small meals through the day to keep my body stable.
I really hate pricking my fingers to get my blood tested. I tried on setting 2 and it barely produced any blood to test on the strip. I had to go to setting 5 and then suffer getting pricked again.
I was taking a break in the conference room and my co-worker texts me something stupid about not having supplies for her place she's cleaning. Well what did she want me to do about it? I can't do anything. It's like she doesn't have a brain and can't think for herself.
I replied back that I was getting my blood sugar tested and I couldn't go get her any. You know, if I needed supplies, I had to go get it myself!
One time, I asked her to please bring me something that I forgot that day (and she was in the same building) and she texted me back and said "Can't you just get it?" well thanks a lot. -_-
She does a really half-cracked job anyways.
Everyone takes advantage of me and I'm sick of it. I'm not a doormat. So when I speak up for myself, I get in more trouble. It makes no sense really. :/ but she won't be around much longer as per what the boss said. So what am I supposed to do in the meantime? Eh..
I still have a bit of time before work so I'm going to relax and try not to be stressed out.
Sick :( and other things
Guess what time of year it still is? that's right, cold and flu season.
I have a nasty cold and that's not good! I work two jobs and can't afford to be sick. I hope everyone who is feeling sick gets well soon.
My co-worker decided to only work a couple hours yesterday, but put down that she worked more on the sign-in sheet. That is stealing from the company. I couldn't be dishonest about things, especially faking my hours at work. If I don't earn honest money, I don't want it. People don't think that faking hours at work is stealing. Well yes it is, it's stealing from the company! You have to have more dignity and morals than that.
I think she's pretty much on her way out anyways. I'm honestly surprised the boss puts up with it, he even knows!
Anyways, on a funny note! Some kid called my cellphone this morning at 3 am and called me a "cawk sucker" (censored). It wasn't funny this morning, being jolted away from sleeping with a phone call like that. I was really sick and needed the sleep and that happens.
But now I suppose I need to laugh at it. It's all I can do, right? It came up from an unknown number with a strange area code that I didn't recognize.
I remember a couple years ago, the house phone rang and I answered it. It sounded like a man in his 50's and his first words were "who the hell is this? what are you doing in my house?!" and I replied, "Who are you?? I live here!" and he swore at me and hung up. Lol okay.
Hmmm, what else should I talk about? :p
Oh, Happy National Pizza Day!! :) *insert yummy pizza emoji here*
I can't remember what else I was going to say. Oh don't worry, I always find something to say. :p
I have a nasty cold and that's not good! I work two jobs and can't afford to be sick. I hope everyone who is feeling sick gets well soon.
My co-worker decided to only work a couple hours yesterday, but put down that she worked more on the sign-in sheet. That is stealing from the company. I couldn't be dishonest about things, especially faking my hours at work. If I don't earn honest money, I don't want it. People don't think that faking hours at work is stealing. Well yes it is, it's stealing from the company! You have to have more dignity and morals than that.
I think she's pretty much on her way out anyways. I'm honestly surprised the boss puts up with it, he even knows!
Anyways, on a funny note! Some kid called my cellphone this morning at 3 am and called me a "cawk sucker" (censored). It wasn't funny this morning, being jolted away from sleeping with a phone call like that. I was really sick and needed the sleep and that happens.
But now I suppose I need to laugh at it. It's all I can do, right? It came up from an unknown number with a strange area code that I didn't recognize.
I remember a couple years ago, the house phone rang and I answered it. It sounded like a man in his 50's and his first words were "who the hell is this? what are you doing in my house?!" and I replied, "Who are you?? I live here!" and he swore at me and hung up. Lol okay.
Hmmm, what else should I talk about? :p
Oh, Happy National Pizza Day!! :) *insert yummy pizza emoji here*
I can't remember what else I was going to say. Oh don't worry, I always find something to say. :p
Sunday, February 7, 2016
Netflix Suggestions?
So I've been using my friend's Netflix account and I'm curious about some good stuff to watch.
I can't stand "Orange Is The New Black" so not that suggestion lol.
I watched an old series that I watched with my grandma and grandpa when I was a kid. It's called "Keeping Up Appearances" and when I was younger, I didn't understand why it was so funny. I do now though! and I rather enjoy it. Hyacinth Bucket (pronounced Bouquet) is very comical as the rest of them. It's a British comedy so if you want something different to watch, that's pretty good.
I've already seen House up to season 4, and Pretty Little Liars up to season 5 (on Netflix, not counting TV). I watched the movie Stonehearst Asylum which was pretty good (despite the reviews). Gothika wasn't too bad, but it wasn't the best. Halle Berry plays a good part and keeps you wondering what happens next.
I saw Time Lapse, that wasn't bad (despite the reviews) lol. I wanted to see what happened.
Some of my friends like to watch "Once Upon A Time" but I'm not sure I really want to watch some fantasy stories. Is it any good? I was thinking about it, but not completely sold on it.
I watched "Living On One Dollar" which was a very good documentary. I strongly suggest that you check it out. As well as "On The Way To School". Both were very good and shows you how good we in the United States have it. I know it could always be worse, and I'm certainly not rich by any means, but I can go to the tap and turn it on, and out comes fresh water. People in developing countries don't have that luxury that we do.
I'm in the mood for a good movie. I like horror movies, but the selection on Netflix isn't very good. I hate Hulu because the commercials are so darn long! even if you pay for it, you still get ads, and long ones at that. No thanks Hulu! I'm not sold!
I guess I'll browse through the categories and see if anything strikes my fancy. Any suggestions are welcome! :)
I can't stand "Orange Is The New Black" so not that suggestion lol.
I watched an old series that I watched with my grandma and grandpa when I was a kid. It's called "Keeping Up Appearances" and when I was younger, I didn't understand why it was so funny. I do now though! and I rather enjoy it. Hyacinth Bucket (pronounced Bouquet) is very comical as the rest of them. It's a British comedy so if you want something different to watch, that's pretty good.
I've already seen House up to season 4, and Pretty Little Liars up to season 5 (on Netflix, not counting TV). I watched the movie Stonehearst Asylum which was pretty good (despite the reviews). Gothika wasn't too bad, but it wasn't the best. Halle Berry plays a good part and keeps you wondering what happens next.
I saw Time Lapse, that wasn't bad (despite the reviews) lol. I wanted to see what happened.
Some of my friends like to watch "Once Upon A Time" but I'm not sure I really want to watch some fantasy stories. Is it any good? I was thinking about it, but not completely sold on it.
I watched "Living On One Dollar" which was a very good documentary. I strongly suggest that you check it out. As well as "On The Way To School". Both were very good and shows you how good we in the United States have it. I know it could always be worse, and I'm certainly not rich by any means, but I can go to the tap and turn it on, and out comes fresh water. People in developing countries don't have that luxury that we do.
I'm in the mood for a good movie. I like horror movies, but the selection on Netflix isn't very good. I hate Hulu because the commercials are so darn long! even if you pay for it, you still get ads, and long ones at that. No thanks Hulu! I'm not sold!
I guess I'll browse through the categories and see if anything strikes my fancy. Any suggestions are welcome! :)
Zoloft side-effects?
On a more serious note, I wanted to make a post about the anti-depressant, Zoloft. Have any of you tried it? I've been on it for about three weeks now. For the most part, it's helped my depression but it wasn't enough. So I was put on Buspirone 5mg it's sort of a "helper pill" to help the seratonin. Anyways, my blood sugar has been dropping quickly and..it's become a serious problem.
With my jobs, I can't afford to be sick or miss work! I don't know what to do!
So I had to get more blood work taken to find out exactly what's going on with me. Before I started taking Zoloft, I took Paxil and it helped me for years. Paxil helped with my anxiety, but not with my depression. It makes me anxious thinking about it as a matter of fact.
I want to share something with you, dear readers. When I had my first panic attack, my nerves were terrible! I was rushed to the ER because people didn't know what was wrong with me. And my dad doesn't approve of counseling or anything of the sort, and neither does my grandma! I became very agoraphobic (meaning afraid to leave the house) and even going to the mailbox outside was very scary! My heart was racing faster than I can even describe! I don't wish that on anyone, I really don't.
Well, I was agoraphobic in 2008 and I was starting college.. I couldn't leave home to drive the 30 mins to the university even.. it felt like it was a big operation!
But you know what? I didn't have ANY support, none at all. So it was up to me to make the changes I need to so I could live a better life.
I was seeing the counselor in college (without my parents knowing) and it helped. I was put on Lexapro at first and had terrible side effects! I was sweating profusely, racing mind, racing heart, no sleep, and I was wired! it was awful! I was put on Ativan and getting off that was almost like I was dying! the side-effects were so bad that I was throwing up with a terrible migraine for almost 4 days!
I went to the hospital (eventually when my dad caved in) and the doctor in the emergency room treated me like absolute crap..
Anyways, long story short, I am now on Zoloft and having problems keeping my blood sugar at a normal level. I'm scared because I don't have a working glucose meter and who knows what else is wrong with me? I'm wondering if Zoloft 150mg and Buspirone 5mg together makes you have low blood sugar..some medications can even cause diabetes! (don't get freaked out by this!)
**One thing that I've learned was DO NOT GOOGLE YOUR SYMPTOMS! because it can only make matters worse! example: If someone looked up pain in the arm, it makes you think you have the worst thing imaginable! Someone on Twitter posted "It's lucky I'm not a Hypochondriac or something. Just googled some symptoms and I've been diagnosed myself with epilepsy."
Here's another one that was something to chuckle about, "The older I get the more I can't tell if my body is falling apart or I'm becoming a hypochondriac."
My point is, don't go googling symptoms because it will scare the crap out of you! trust me, I've learned it the hard way!
I hope this blog post can help people..I overcame Agoraphobia all by myself with no support, not even from my family! I did it, and anyone else who is suffering from that or anxiety/depression, you can do it! I'll be here as best that I can. Feel free to comment on my posts if you want.
With my jobs, I can't afford to be sick or miss work! I don't know what to do!
So I had to get more blood work taken to find out exactly what's going on with me. Before I started taking Zoloft, I took Paxil and it helped me for years. Paxil helped with my anxiety, but not with my depression. It makes me anxious thinking about it as a matter of fact.
I want to share something with you, dear readers. When I had my first panic attack, my nerves were terrible! I was rushed to the ER because people didn't know what was wrong with me. And my dad doesn't approve of counseling or anything of the sort, and neither does my grandma! I became very agoraphobic (meaning afraid to leave the house) and even going to the mailbox outside was very scary! My heart was racing faster than I can even describe! I don't wish that on anyone, I really don't.
Well, I was agoraphobic in 2008 and I was starting college.. I couldn't leave home to drive the 30 mins to the university even.. it felt like it was a big operation!
But you know what? I didn't have ANY support, none at all. So it was up to me to make the changes I need to so I could live a better life.
I was seeing the counselor in college (without my parents knowing) and it helped. I was put on Lexapro at first and had terrible side effects! I was sweating profusely, racing mind, racing heart, no sleep, and I was wired! it was awful! I was put on Ativan and getting off that was almost like I was dying! the side-effects were so bad that I was throwing up with a terrible migraine for almost 4 days!
I went to the hospital (eventually when my dad caved in) and the doctor in the emergency room treated me like absolute crap..
Anyways, long story short, I am now on Zoloft and having problems keeping my blood sugar at a normal level. I'm scared because I don't have a working glucose meter and who knows what else is wrong with me? I'm wondering if Zoloft 150mg and Buspirone 5mg together makes you have low blood sugar..some medications can even cause diabetes! (don't get freaked out by this!)
**One thing that I've learned was DO NOT GOOGLE YOUR SYMPTOMS! because it can only make matters worse! example: If someone looked up pain in the arm, it makes you think you have the worst thing imaginable! Someone on Twitter posted "It's lucky I'm not a Hypochondriac or something. Just googled some symptoms and I've been diagnosed myself with epilepsy."
Here's another one that was something to chuckle about, "The older I get the more I can't tell if my body is falling apart or I'm becoming a hypochondriac."
My point is, don't go googling symptoms because it will scare the crap out of you! trust me, I've learned it the hard way!
I hope this blog post can help people..I overcame Agoraphobia all by myself with no support, not even from my family! I did it, and anyone else who is suffering from that or anxiety/depression, you can do it! I'll be here as best that I can. Feel free to comment on my posts if you want.
Chatty Today
Wow, I'm really chatty today! Not sure why either!
If any of you out there have a blogger account, why not comment me? If you have a view on something you would like discussed, my opinion on, anything! let me know :) so I have something else to chat about! how does that sound?
Hm, wonder if I have anything cool to show you guys in my pictures. *searches for something* Oh here's some bonbons gif I found online! I didn't make it! I believe the credit goes to...Chibiville :)
Oh I did find some of my old pictures from ages ago. I took a picture of a candle because it looked cool. I'll show you just for the heck of it. Speaking of that, my dad used to tell this joke about working at the fish market and singing for the "halibut" (hell of it). Hahaha yeah.
If any of you out there have a blogger account, why not comment me? If you have a view on something you would like discussed, my opinion on, anything! let me know :) so I have something else to chat about! how does that sound?
Hm, wonder if I have anything cool to show you guys in my pictures. *searches for something* Oh here's some bonbons gif I found online! I didn't make it! I believe the credit goes to...Chibiville :)
Oh I did find some of my old pictures from ages ago. I took a picture of a candle because it looked cool. I'll show you just for the heck of it. Speaking of that, my dad used to tell this joke about working at the fish market and singing for the "halibut" (hell of it). Hahaha yeah.
You know, maybe I'll make a post about photos I took or something. Hey, it might even give you some stress-relief! right??
Killer Post & Web of Lies
So I just got into this new series called "Killer Post" and it sure is crazy! People killing each other all over some posts they made on Facebook and social media. The one I saw today was teenagers fighting over a girl. I mean seriously? There is plenty of fish in the sea! There's absolutely no need to kill someone over another person, or anything. I can't even describe it!
I really like Web of Lies better. Much better. My only complaint about that show is the new narrator. They shouldn't have replaced Nathan Wiley with some woman. People on Twitter were really pissed about it, haha. I can't stand the new narrator at all! Wiley had that perfect voice and he made the whole thing more interesting. He has that voice that just draws you in! Hey Investigation Discovery, bring back Nathan Wiley! If you're a fan of the show, and want Nathan Wiley back, go on Twitter and tweet to +Discovery and tell them you want Wiley back! @NWiley101 on Twitter :)
I really like Web of Lies better. Much better. My only complaint about that show is the new narrator. They shouldn't have replaced Nathan Wiley with some woman. People on Twitter were really pissed about it, haha. I can't stand the new narrator at all! Wiley had that perfect voice and he made the whole thing more interesting. He has that voice that just draws you in! Hey Investigation Discovery, bring back Nathan Wiley! If you're a fan of the show, and want Nathan Wiley back, go on Twitter and tweet to +Discovery and tell them you want Wiley back! @NWiley101 on Twitter :)
Update
Sorry for the delay in updating! I started my second job and it was overwhelming at first! I was whipped! I worked 5 & 1/2 hours and only took a 5 minute break. I really should take longer breaks, I'm allowed to! but you know, I just like getting work done and over with..and done well!
I was exhausted! then I went to my other job and worked my usual hours and came home. I was way too tired to get on the computer or anything. I went to bed early. Then I had to fast because I was getting blood work done again. I had to get checked for everything, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, lipids, diabetes.. but it's better to get it done and out of the way.
My back is sore today but I did some laundry and helped my aunt out with some stuff for her classroom. I don't have any energy today really..not sure why; but my guess is, I'm just whipped from work. I have to work two jobs so I can afford things lol.
I was washing the windows at my new job and they were thrilled. They acted like it was the best thing in the world. I do it at my other job too, it's nothing special! but I do more than just the bare minimum. I can't say that for most of the people who have jobs.
I watched The Kitten Bowl 3 today and it was really super adorable! I love kittens :) It gave me a big smile. Mr Slippers took a nap on the field today and it was cute, haha. I'm glad they had The Kitten Bowl. The Puppy Bowl is another good cause! It helps get animals in need of a home to get adopted! Adopt a furry friend today :) and don't forget to get your pets spayed and neutered! (I'm very animal and environmentally friendly!)
I noticed that when I type things here, I don't really keep the subjects all together. Stuff comes out randomly, so bear with me!
I'm not sure who really reads my blog yet, but I hope it gives you something to do lol!
I bought a White Noise Machine on Ebay for $16. It's nice and small, perfect for my dresser. I need the white noise so I can sleep. I can't stand the cars and noise outside. For some reason, I can't sleep in complete silence. I did in Italy though! but it sure was different lol.
Sanford and Son is on TV right now and I'm laughing while typing this. Sanford and Son bought some "hot copper" haha. I really wish they would show the episode where Fred and Lamont were helping this rich guy move a piano. It was hilarious in that one because every time Lamont would sit down, the guy would come out and see Fred pushing the piano (seeing Lamont slacking and making his Pop do all the work).
Well, not really sure what else to say at the moment. Still waiting on results from the thyroid test, and now more blood work. Wish they would get the results already. I've been waiting more than two weeks for the results of the first test! Playing the Waiting Game isn't fun.
I was exhausted! then I went to my other job and worked my usual hours and came home. I was way too tired to get on the computer or anything. I went to bed early. Then I had to fast because I was getting blood work done again. I had to get checked for everything, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, lipids, diabetes.. but it's better to get it done and out of the way.
My back is sore today but I did some laundry and helped my aunt out with some stuff for her classroom. I don't have any energy today really..not sure why; but my guess is, I'm just whipped from work. I have to work two jobs so I can afford things lol.
I was washing the windows at my new job and they were thrilled. They acted like it was the best thing in the world. I do it at my other job too, it's nothing special! but I do more than just the bare minimum. I can't say that for most of the people who have jobs.
I watched The Kitten Bowl 3 today and it was really super adorable! I love kittens :) It gave me a big smile. Mr Slippers took a nap on the field today and it was cute, haha. I'm glad they had The Kitten Bowl. The Puppy Bowl is another good cause! It helps get animals in need of a home to get adopted! Adopt a furry friend today :) and don't forget to get your pets spayed and neutered! (I'm very animal and environmentally friendly!)
I noticed that when I type things here, I don't really keep the subjects all together. Stuff comes out randomly, so bear with me!
I'm not sure who really reads my blog yet, but I hope it gives you something to do lol!
I bought a White Noise Machine on Ebay for $16. It's nice and small, perfect for my dresser. I need the white noise so I can sleep. I can't stand the cars and noise outside. For some reason, I can't sleep in complete silence. I did in Italy though! but it sure was different lol.
Sanford and Son is on TV right now and I'm laughing while typing this. Sanford and Son bought some "hot copper" haha. I really wish they would show the episode where Fred and Lamont were helping this rich guy move a piano. It was hilarious in that one because every time Lamont would sit down, the guy would come out and see Fred pushing the piano (seeing Lamont slacking and making his Pop do all the work).
Well, not really sure what else to say at the moment. Still waiting on results from the thyroid test, and now more blood work. Wish they would get the results already. I've been waiting more than two weeks for the results of the first test! Playing the Waiting Game isn't fun.
Wednesday, February 3, 2016
Dealing With It
Learning to deal with Hypoglycemia isn't fun. I am still in the process of learning what foods to eat, and what foods to avoid. It would be easier if I had a support system to help share tips and ideas with.. but anyways, let's get down to it.
Whether you're at work, home, school, the grocery store, traffic, whatever! Your blood sugar can drop any time! and you start to feel lightheaded, nauseated, being sweating profusely, your whole body feels weak, and your legs are numb/trembling...yeah you get the idea. It's not fun! so what to do you do?
My advice is to always be prepared as best you can! Like if you are a student, or go to work, or both! Be sure to have a snack and lunch with you (fast food places are out!)
I usually have a bologna sandwich with mustard for lunch, a cheese stick and a piece of fruit (apple, pear or orange). Instead of eating it all at once, I eat the sandwich first, then I save the rest for later, usually a couple hours later.
I took unsweetened apple sauce and a sugar free jello with me to work--and I needed it! I also was given some unsalted peanuts from a co-worker. Peanuts are great to take with you because it's a quick snack on the go! I always bring a bottle of water with me, or Powerade (not zero). Now, if you're allergic to peanuts or any type of nut, then find a different snack that works for you! like a granola bar! (which are very tasty, I might add!)
The reason why I didn't mention breakfast first is because it's different for everyone. If you're like me, you hate eating breakfast simply because you just don't feel like it. It's understandable, right? What I do is have 1 Carnation Instant Breakfast (the mix) and a half of a banana, then have a slice of wheat bread/or toast (1 slice) with peanut butter.
Yes, yes, it's very important to eat breakfast but sometimes I just don't feel like it. But skipping meals is a big no no! I'm sure you know that already.
If you're Diabetic or Hypoglycemic, a good idea is to buy a medical ID bracelet. I am going to buy myself one soon. It's very important to have one just incase of an emergency! When I had my very first blood sugar drop, I was at work, and nobody knew what was wrong with me. If I had one of those medical bracelets, I could have gotten help sooner! It's better safe than sorry! I know it's embarrassing to have to wear one, but you know what? It just may save your life!
Whether you're at work, home, school, the grocery store, traffic, whatever! Your blood sugar can drop any time! and you start to feel lightheaded, nauseated, being sweating profusely, your whole body feels weak, and your legs are numb/trembling...yeah you get the idea. It's not fun! so what to do you do?
My advice is to always be prepared as best you can! Like if you are a student, or go to work, or both! Be sure to have a snack and lunch with you (fast food places are out!)
I usually have a bologna sandwich with mustard for lunch, a cheese stick and a piece of fruit (apple, pear or orange). Instead of eating it all at once, I eat the sandwich first, then I save the rest for later, usually a couple hours later.
I took unsweetened apple sauce and a sugar free jello with me to work--and I needed it! I also was given some unsalted peanuts from a co-worker. Peanuts are great to take with you because it's a quick snack on the go! I always bring a bottle of water with me, or Powerade (not zero). Now, if you're allergic to peanuts or any type of nut, then find a different snack that works for you! like a granola bar! (which are very tasty, I might add!)
The reason why I didn't mention breakfast first is because it's different for everyone. If you're like me, you hate eating breakfast simply because you just don't feel like it. It's understandable, right? What I do is have 1 Carnation Instant Breakfast (the mix) and a half of a banana, then have a slice of wheat bread/or toast (1 slice) with peanut butter.
Yes, yes, it's very important to eat breakfast but sometimes I just don't feel like it. But skipping meals is a big no no! I'm sure you know that already.
If you're Diabetic or Hypoglycemic, a good idea is to buy a medical ID bracelet. I am going to buy myself one soon. It's very important to have one just incase of an emergency! When I had my very first blood sugar drop, I was at work, and nobody knew what was wrong with me. If I had one of those medical bracelets, I could have gotten help sooner! It's better safe than sorry! I know it's embarrassing to have to wear one, but you know what? It just may save your life!
Hypoglycemia Problems
Hello to everyone out there, I'm Starlina thanks for checking out my blog.
I am 26 years old, and suffer from Hypoglycemia. It has become increasingly worse the past few months. I don't have many friends who understand what I'm going through..so I hope my blog helps others out there. Please keep in mind that my blog isn't a substitute for going to your actual doctor! just had to throw that out there. My blog will be--well, my blog! not just my Hypoglycemia problems!
My blood sugar dropped for the third time today, a few minutes ago. I just had a slice of wheat toast with peanut butter and a half cup of orange juice. All of a sudden I got lightheaded and it wouldn't go away, I started sweating profusely and had to lay down (does this sound familiar?) Well I didn't have a snack with me and it was my 4th hour of working, my physical labor job! My body needed food, sugar, but I didn't have anything. Thankfully a co-worker had a Nutty Buddy and gave it to me along with some water. I was able to finally collect myself about 45 minutes later. It's a terrible feeling and I wish nobody had to deal with this!
I'm hoping to feel better as soon as possible. Especially since I start my second new job tomorrow. Thankfully the boss knows my family quite well and they will understand if I need a break at work. However, I'm still nervous--and rightfully so! I'll tell you guys all about it tomorrow.
I am 26 years old, and suffer from Hypoglycemia. It has become increasingly worse the past few months. I don't have many friends who understand what I'm going through..so I hope my blog helps others out there. Please keep in mind that my blog isn't a substitute for going to your actual doctor! just had to throw that out there. My blog will be--well, my blog! not just my Hypoglycemia problems!
My blood sugar dropped for the third time today, a few minutes ago. I just had a slice of wheat toast with peanut butter and a half cup of orange juice. All of a sudden I got lightheaded and it wouldn't go away, I started sweating profusely and had to lay down (does this sound familiar?) Well I didn't have a snack with me and it was my 4th hour of working, my physical labor job! My body needed food, sugar, but I didn't have anything. Thankfully a co-worker had a Nutty Buddy and gave it to me along with some water. I was able to finally collect myself about 45 minutes later. It's a terrible feeling and I wish nobody had to deal with this!
I'm hoping to feel better as soon as possible. Especially since I start my second new job tomorrow. Thankfully the boss knows my family quite well and they will understand if I need a break at work. However, I'm still nervous--and rightfully so! I'll tell you guys all about it tomorrow.
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