Ever feel alone?

do you ever feel so alone?
Your only company is cats & TV? When you're not working I mean.
Your only real friends are online & they can't talk?
I need some sort of love in my life.

Oh and going to James' house didn't happen.
A deer hit my car and smashed the driver's side window and side door.
So I thought I should throw that out there.

I logged in Skype and only 2 people were on. Someone I don't know, and someone who rarely uses it.
Online and shit seems just so lonely and devoid of emotion anymore.
I don't get that "rush" about getting online anymore.
There's no more "mysteries" there's no more sleepless nights wondering what the world holds out there..
Is this all in life?
I have not a single sleepless night anymore.
I remember laying awake when I was younger in high school especially thinking "hm what kind of awesome job will I get after graduating?"
I was so excited what things in life I'd have like a job and a lover and maybe even marriage.
Unfortunately those good things aren't in the cards for me.
Most people my age already have kids, and are engaged or married by now.
I'm only in my 20's and life feels like there's no more excitement.

I remember when I was a kid, I saw people getting married & I thought I'd be getting married too.
Of course I always wanted to go to college in England and that never happened.
Actually this is too much to type on my phone so I'll get on the laptop.
Prepare to read my thoughts.
Thanks.
Your friend,

Mickey