so um

i actually came here to close my blog down but i decided to keep it.
i just wont be updating everyday anymore or multiple times a day. theres no real reason for it besides me bitching the whole time.


so ive been spending a little time with an online friend and we watch netflix together. thankfully she lets me use hers because paddy used to let me use his but its all in german and i cant read german..so reading summaries of movies and episodes arent good since i cant read it.

i must admit to you guys that its hard going through life alone. but i guess there's no way around it.
lol work sucks, friendships have sucked too. but good news for that is, i got to talk to my cous and her girlfriend so that was fun. and talked to another friend.

wellity well, now what to talk about? does anyone even read this? lol
i spend a lot of time thinking about the past and how much better it could have been. now days im constantly worried how i will pay for bills like dental and glasses etc. idk.
would be nice to know that someone cares about me and could message me sometime. but it feels like im just typing to a wall, since nobody talks or anything.

ok what else to say..hmmm interests lets see.
ive really wanted to act in a play someday. you know? you can act and dance and sing if you wanted to. and what id like is giving personalities to characters. i honestly cant sing or dance, but i like to act. its weird though since i dont like people looking at me. lol me, like, they can look at a character that i am portraying but not me. idk im not very interesting i guess.

i wish i could get back into watching anime, but i havent been able to anymore. maybe just certain ones? im not into attack on titan or fairytale or most that other people are into. i dont like to follow trends i should say. im just basically me. idk about trends. i like what i like.

a lot of people have been into Harry Potter but  i couldnt ever get into it. i tried. i was given the first book as a gift when i was a kid but i didnt care for it. i wish i could though, its so farfetched to me like moaning myrtle? i think her name was. she haunts the woman's bathroom i guess.
idk i mean, id prefer HP over twilight. ew. dont get me started on twilight. vampires do not sparkle! eww.

well i cant think of anything else to talk about. my friend is going to watch  a movie with me tonight at her house, and i watch it at mine and we instant message about it. well shes probably waiting for me, so i guess ill go too.