actually I do

Actually I have more to say before I go to bed.
I'll be realistic with you guys.
True love doesn't exist. It only does in the lies fabricated by the media, and fairy tales.
Anyone who tells you that they love you and promises never to leave, it's a lie. It's very unrealistic and gives us unrealistic expectations of love and when they never work out, we become upset.
But if you have someone, and are married now, good for you. Glad to know that things worked out for you.
Because of  my exes, especially this last one, is the reason that I don't believe in love anymore.
I was hoping that I would log into my twitter or whatsapp and get a message from him explaining everything but nope. couldn't even get that.
I think that I was led on..maybe this was all planned right from the start.
I don't know.
but I do know is that..I should have seen this sooner. I should have figured that the ex would of came back to him right when I found out they had a kid together. Isn't that always the case? and I find it funny that she just became civil with him and claimed they won't fight for the sake of their kid. Then he tells me his dad told him he was stupid for leaving his ex. Then guess what? magically the next day he's gone and deleted his twitter and whatsapp.
So then there's me. Here I am..heartbroken and stupid for believing he actually meant what he said.
The next time anyone tells me they promise they won't leave, and promise they love me or care for me..I won't believe it.
Not a single person that has told me that has ever stayed. Why the hell would you make a promise like that to someone and get their hopes up? I will never know.

At this point I am considering deleting my twitter. The only reason I have it is to talk to a couple of people. And repost anxiety thoughts and so on. That's all I can do.
Unfortunately it may just be a sad reminder that he isn't coming back.
If this was a joke, it's not funny and I'm not laughing.
It isn't fun on there anymore.
What will I do now? getting on and hoping to get a message from you but never do?
Real funny.
You knew this would hurt me, but you did it anyways.
I'm broken and miserable..
Thanks a lot.
I hope you sleep well at night.
so for tonight's lesson; don't make unrealistic promises that you can't keep or have absolutely no intention of keeping.
Thanks.

Sincerely,

A shell of a person.